Lost in the Dark

Have you ever been sitting at your house during a storm and had the power go out? It's dark outside and your whole house is pitch black! You are used to where things are in your house and you know they are there but you can't see them!


That's how I have felt this whole week. Anything that could go wrong has. Through it all I know God is in it but it's so dark right now I can't see him.


I want so bad to know what his lesson is in all of this and when it will all end. I'm trying hard to lean on him but not sure he is hearing a word I'm saying.

I know everyone feels this way at some point in their life and there are far worse problems in the world than what I am dealing with. I'm just praying that God reveals himself to me soon.


God says he won't give you more than you can handle but I'm pretty sure he has more faith in me than I do.

This is kind of a random blog but my family could use some major prayers right now and who better to do that than my brothers and sisters in christ!!

God's Gifts

Here lately I have been praying that God would start revealing to me the gifts my children have been given. Anyone who knows Gabby knows that she has the gift of worship. At 3 yrs old she is already a little christian jukebox who loves to sing and praise the Lord. She is also very outgoing. These are great gifts but I felt maybe the other kids were feeling less important because they are not as outgoing.



God has revealed some of these gifts to me. Cameron was a hard one to figure out, but after praying about it I remembered how he has given me facts out of the Bible that I didn't even know. I think God has given him knowledge and the ability to retain things he learns out of the bible. I pray as he matures that his knowledge would grow and grow and that someday he would teach God's word to others.



Madison is a compassionate and nurturing person. She loves to help others with no strings attached and has a real servants heart. She loves the lord so much and makes me so proud. I pray that someday she will use this compassion and love to bring people to Jesus.



Macy is the one that always takes me by surprise. You may recall that her St. Patrick's Day wish was to see Jesus before she dies. We also forgot to read her book for school one wednesday night because we had been at church. On hearing this the teacher said church is important, but school is more important. Macy's comment to this was No It's not. Jesus is the most important. This week she had to use 2 spelling words in a sentence. She chose powerful and product and here was her sentence. God is powerful because he makes products like us! I'm convinced that her teacher thinks we are Jesus Freaks and I'm ok with that. There is no way at 8 yrs old that I had the passion for Jesus that Macy does. Every little detail of her life has to do with God and her love for him and she will tell anyone about Jesus without any second thoughts. I pray that the fire that Macy has in her bones can never be put out by the world around her. I pray that she uses this fire to tell people about Jesus everywhere she goes.



This is not a blog to brag about my children's gifts. It just amazes me how each one is different, yet if they all worked together what a mighty tool for God they could be.



Sounds like to me what God intended the church to be. We all have our own gifts but if we would just put them together we could be a mighty tool for God.



I think i learn more from my children than they ever learn from me. I am so thankful that God has given me 4 children that love him with such passion.

Driving miss Daisy

So this is the start of one of the prayers I said today. It started like this Dear Jesus don't let her hit us. You may think that I was about to be in a major accident but..... It was really just an elderly lady that may or may not go to our church pulling out of the grocery store parking lot.

I was pulling out of the parking lot when I saw ( we will call her Betty to protect the innocent) her making a huge circle the wrong way in the parking lot. I knew she was heading my way and I was like dear Jesus don't let her hit us!!

As Betty pulled behind me she slammed on her brakes so hard that her back door came flying open. When I say hard I mean so hard that the door sprung back shut!! The funniest thing is she was oblivious that any of this had happened. Although she did open and shut her drivers side door as if she thought thats where the sudden draft had come from.

At this point I'm pretty much hysterical and my little girl is wondering why I'm laughing. It's all fun and games until Betty decided to start inching forward. At that moment God answered my prayer and the light turned green.

Freedom in Worship

In the dictionary it defines worship as worthiness, respect, reverence paid to a divine being (GOD). It also says it's excessive admiration of or devotion to a person. (GOD)
Worship is for the Glorification of God. Think back to last Sunday or the last time you were in church worshipping. Did GOD get all your respect, admiration and devotion? Do you think you glorified him? Did you put him above everything or everyone else?
This is not to pass judgement, I myself have given half hearted worship on many occasions. Either i am distracted by kids, other people, my wordly problems, or i'm afraid to worship freely because someone may think i'm some kind of freak! Well i've decided to become a freak, a JESUS FREAK!!
I think God deserves all of me not just parts. He is a jealous God and he doesn't want to share us with anything else in this world. Especially when we are claiming to worship him. Are we really giving him respect if we can't even give him 30 minutes of undivided attention a week. We should be giving so much more, think of all he gave for us! Are we really being devoted to God?
I am asking whoever reads this to examine your worship. Have you ever been prompted by the Holy Spirit to raise your arms during church, to go to the altar to pray (I can hear it now, we aren't supposed to go to the altar until the end. Does God have a time schedule?) to go and pray with someone? When I am fully worshipping God and giving him all I have, that is when I can truly feel the Holy Spirit moving so freely. God has so many big things for us if we just give him all the praise he deserves and quit putting him in a pretty little box. He is a big God let's give him room to move.
This will be a big challenge for me too. I never like to stick out. I like to fit into what we call normal, but is this really satisfying God? I feel God is calling us to a whole new level of worship.
I am do not pretend to know where things are in the bible but I'm pretty sure that it says that if we don't praise him the rocks will cry out on our behalf.( I need a few of my bible scholar friends help here) If this is true I am not going to have some rock doing my part. Did God send his Son to die for a rocks sins?
Well I hope this blog hasn't been a downer. I just feel really strongly that God is tired of the routine of worship and wants to see if people will follow the spirit even if it makes them feel uncomfortable.

Let it rain, Let it rain, open the flood gates of Heaven Let it rain.
I feel if we are obedient and open to the Holy Spirit that God will open the flood gates and take us to a whole new level but we have to give it all to him.

As i'm finishing this i'm already hearing that whisper saying don't post that you are going to offend people and they will think you are weird. You know what if I am being weird for Jesus at least it's for a good cause. LOL

God's Will Not Ours.

I was reminded of a story yesterday, and thought it was a sad but true example of how we treat God sometimes. When Cameron was 6 they were going to have a dress up day at school. He comes to me and says, "mommy I need my sheriffs badge and can't find it." We searched everywhere we could think of and still had no luck. I told Cameron lets pray and ask Jesus to show us where it's at. After praying we went to searching again. Pretty soon I said here it is Cameron, Jesus helped us find it. Cameron took it in his hand and says, " I didn't want this one I wanted the other one." He decided afterwards that it would do if he couldn't find the other one. How many times in my life have I prayed for something and when it's happened it hasn't happened the way I wanted it to go. How many times have I asked for him to deal with my problems and he hasn't solved them the way that I wanted.
Sometimes we have to stop acting like a 6 year old, and say whatever your will for me is God ,I'm on board and thank you for caring enough for me to give me what I need not what I want. It's not about us it's all about you God.
Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground. psalm 143:10
Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. I Thessalonians 5: 16-18

This is just a praise God blog. My daughter was admitted to the hospital at Midnight Monday night but thanks to the grace of God we were out of there by 3 p.m. on Tuesday. She had rotovirus and sometimes with small children they can spend several days in the hospital. She still tires easily but is recovering nicely. My next praise is that after being unemployed for almost a year my husband was offered not just one but two different jobs on the same day this week. Gods timing is so awesome!! My third and most exciting praise is that my 8 yr old twin girls are going forward in church tomorrow to confess Jesus as their lord and savior. I am so excited for their decision. After their decision my 3 yr old says I want to get baptized. I said why and she said "because I love Jesus forever." Praise the Lord for all he does everyday even the little things.

St. Patrick's Day suprise

Have you ever had your child come home from school and say something that totally caught you by suprise? Macy came home from school the other day and said we made shamrocks with wishes on them today. I asked her what she wished for assuming it would be a million dollars, more toys or some other random thing. What she told me next blew me away. She said my wish was to see Jesus before I die!! I said are you scared to die and she said no i just really want to see Jesus before I die. I know when I was a child I never thought of seeing Jesus before I died and I never wrote about it at school. Macy truly has a heart for God and is not afraid to share the gospel. I am so proud of the God loving girl she is!!